If I were 17 years old I would be in my car right now, driving around withe the music turned up as loud as it will go...but I'm not 17 so I'm on my bed, in my pjs, and I'm blogging...
Today has been one of those days...the kind of day that I wish I could redo all over. School was just kinda rough and then I came home to a baby who is getting both of her top teeth right now as.we.speak... Need I say more? She wasn't a happy camper. Her wonderful sitter told us that she HELD her for 2 hours this afternoon while she napped. I knew that meant we were in trouble, because that has never happened. The worse part is that I know she is hurting, and there isn't a lot I can do to help. We entertained her for the next 2 1/2 hours and then she was beyond ready for bed. Bath time was a nightmare... but getting clothes on was even worse! The entire time as she's screaming I am repeating over and over in my head "Lord give me patience"... before long I'm out! Finally she's dressed and the bottle is on her mouth and she's quiet...and all I can remember is yelling at Tyler... who didn't deserve it...
So I just rocked her and rocked her and cried and prayed...This isn't exactly how I wanted my day to end, but it did and there is nothing I can do about it except go to bed and try again tomorrow... Try to do better... Try to be more patient... Try to be kinder...I have said this many times, but it's the truth...being a mom is the hardest job I have ever had...mostly because I want to be perfect...and well, I'm human. This is real life...getting up at 5:30, getting Liza to the babysitter bc I have 20 kids waiting on me...rushing home to see Liza...and sometimes losing my patience...this is the real stuff... I wouldn't change a thing...
So as I go to bed tonight, I pray that I'm given the chance to do a little better tomorrow...good night...happy labor day weekend...
Here is a pic from tonight... Pre-fit;)
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