things that make me smile...

i'm officially addicted to looking online for "baby" stuff...non stop...like i need a summer job..its that bad...the good part is i dont know if we have a boy or girl...so i haven't bought anything yet...but come 20 weeks...its on...tyler is somewhere having a panic attack right about now...
after much thinking and searching we have an idea of what our nursery will look like...depending on the sex we will either paint pale pale blue or pale pale pink...like so pale it may look white...then put up white crown molding and majority of the nursery will be white stuff...i know i know, im crazy...but it can all be bleached if necessary ;)...i want a classy nursery..im not really into the bright stuff...here are a few pictures that make me oh so happy...happy tuesday

heavy heart...

so i always heard from sister that its normal to be emotional while being preggers, but boy i did not get it until now...i guess it all started when i read about sweet little miller woodruff...as i sat and read their blog to tyler last night we both cried like babies...i got up from the computer, walked away and continued crying...an hour later as i was hanging up clothes i was still teary eyed...i kept going back to those sweet pictures of that precious little boy...i stopped and sat down in my closet and began to pray...because really what else do you do...i prayed for the woodruff family and then it just went from there...i consider myself to be be pretty realistic so of course i then began praying for our sweet baby...because it wouldn't be normal to assume that this same thing couldn't happen to us...i never realized how much worry a tiny little baby can cause...i worry non stop, i know i shouldnt and i try my hardest not to...but its hard...i find myself praying more these days than ever...
then today i came aross another blog...the title of her post was "running for my soul" i continued reading and realized the girl writing is coping with a miscarriage...the post was about how she is coping...and running is one way...i can so relate...the best runs are the ones you don't really remember...you just take off and think...and before you know it you've run 5 miles...the song that came on while she was running was the same song that she and her husband used on their "announcement video" for their other 2 children...so of course as she ran and listened to this particular song, she cried and cried...but in the end...felt that she had cleansed her soul...
so if you will stop today and say a prayer for both of these families...i'm not sure of the second families name, but God knows exactly who they are...also say a prayer for baby knox and mom and dad...pray mom gets a hold of these tears...love to you all...have wonderful weekends...

New Orleans Top 10...

Our trip was so much fun...hot , but a lot of fun...Pratt enjoyed himself which is all that matters...I have already told Hannah that she owes me BIG time...like she must get pregnant again and take my 2 year old on vacation when its 125 degrees outside...and no Hannah the beach doesn't count...I'm kidding, we really had a great time...Although I see Mom every single day, we don't always get to spend as much time together as I would like...On Sundy night as we were going to bed Mom said "Goodnight Spenc...Thank you so much for coming with me" It hit me then... how important this was to her...not only was this a trip for Pratt, but Mom was able to see her sister, whom she only sees once a year I'd say...at that moment I began to cry(whats new)... I can't imagine only seeing Hannah once a year...so, in the end no matter how hot it was and how much sweating I did...I am so glad I went...for mom...after all she does for me...thats the least I can do...


Top 10 New Orleans

10. The Baby Bump...maternity store...ummm I did some serious damage
9. Cafe Du Monde beignets
8. Driving around the lower 9th ward...everyone should do this
7. Eating oreos and rice crispy treats at 10:30 pm with Pratt
6. Finding the lemonade stand at the zoo...because we were minutes from dehydration
5.Watching Pratt chase butterflies at the insectarium
4.Chasing Pratt through the snake house at the zoo
3.Discussing the color of Pratt's poop with him in the bathroom at the restaurant...not a quiet discussion either...
2. Hearing Pratt say in the sweetest voice ever "I love you Sugar" on numerous occasions...even as we pulled into my drive way on Monday...
1. Making a deal with Pratt (in the bathroom at the same restaurant while on the toilet) he promised me he would teach Baby Knox everything he knows... even how to catch "pwaying manis"...

the beginning...

where do i start...i'm gonna go way back...i've been ready to start a family for a while now, or at least i thought i was...i finally talked tyler into all this a few months back...he was still very nervous, but agreed that he was ready if i was...my theory was "it could take years so we must get started" his theory was "it only takes one time babe...duh 16 year olds get pregnant all the time their first time"...i swear he really said that ALL the time... so of course he was right...it didn't take long...

i will never forget the day i took the test...i had a gut feeling it was going to be positive and sure enough within seconds...i went outside to get tyler (after pacing the floors for 10 minutes) ... he was outside admiring his new zero turn lawn mower...so in he comes and i say "well. i think we are pregnant" i wish i had a picture of his face...he sat down on the edge of the bathtub and said "are you sure" then after a few minutes of us just staring at each other he says "well, ive always been fast at everything i do...so what can i say...i better go see how many neighbors need their yards mowed...we're gonna need some extra cash!"

we told our parents within a few days...of course i called hannah first and she and pratt both yelled "sugar has a baby in her belly" i wasn't good at waiting...i had blood work done and "announced" it within a few weeks...telling my kiddos at school was the most fun...they said things like"name her after me" and "i will babysit"

so 10 1/2 weeks later we are so excited...tylers nerves have finally chilled out and it has consumed both of us...i'm not sure how i will wait until january, but we will...we have so much to do and i have no idea where to start...i was able to see the heartbeat last week and it was unreal...the baby was constantly moving...throwing his/her arms all around...i'm guessing he/she will be a busy body like mom and dad...
duh what was i thinking i would have a calm child...

on a serious note we can't wait... we say a prayer together every night...it always sounds about the same but always special...all we want is a healthy, happy baby...thats all... here is a picture of my growing tummy...it may not look that big, but its there...FOR SURE!

dear baby.

dear sweet baby,

my real name is hannah.  but you can call me honey.  or homey.  or han.  or hot dog for all i care.  i'll answer to anything.

i'm not sure of your name yet.  i know of two possibilities...but it all depends on your gender.

and about that.  i don't have a preference.  and i know that your sweet parents don't either.  they just want you to be healthy.  amen.

a few things, i guess.

i'm your mommy's sister.  i prayed for you long before you ever arrived here on earth.  i have seen your mommy with my two little boys and i knew that she was ready for you.  it's going to be so hard to wait until january to meet you.  but i'm not asking you to come early.  in fact...you just stay right where you are. and if you want...you can come right on time.  on your due date.  whatever floats your boat, really.

let's see.  about your parents.

your mommy is one of the most organized people i know.  she likes to clean up areas that are cluttered.  part of this "cleaning" involves shuffling papers as quickly as she can.  putting them in stacks.  when i close my eyes, that's what i see her doing.  oh, and cleaning.  her house...your house...is one of the cleanest houses ever.  mine is not.  come to my house and get your immunity.

your mom loves animals.  maybe more than people.  she is a school teacher.  and even though she acts tough about her students...she's really a total softie.  she is one of the funniest people i know.  she says things that only i would get.  like "one van phan".  be sure and ask her about that.  oh, and while we're on the subject, as her about justin timberlake.  and the letter she wrote to him.  oh...and ask her about stealing a mickey mouse backpack from disney world.  that's a good story...

your dad.  oh man. where to begin.  he has one of the biggest hearts ever.  he is honest.  and kind.  and he loves your mommy like no one else i've ever known.  (well, maybe her daddy.  your pop pop.) he's talented.  and someday could build you a playhouse.  or a real house.  probably whatever you choose.

oh, his laugh.  well, you'll just have to hear it for yourself.  it's fantastic.  and his songs.  they are fantastic too.  i'm pretty sure that he will spend most of your youth, waking you in the morning with his songs.  you'll love it.

okay.  i guess that's all for now.  i'm turning this blog over to your mother.  i'm making it for her as a surprise.  i think she will love keeping up with her pregnancy...and your life.

i love you little one.  so very, very much.

i cannot wait to meet you.

xoxo.
honey.